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The Monsters in My Mind

The Monsters in My Mind

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There's Monsters in My Mind
Always there to find
hurting me
smashing me
touching me
inapprotiately

I wish they would leave
I wish they would die
They took that part of me
and made me live a lie

I use to be little
I use to wear pink
My mind was free
and able to think

Now I'm a shell
on a pathway to hell
Dirty
Used
Wasted
Abused

Why would you do that
to such a little girl?
Why would you want to
with such a little girl?

I don't understand.
Why you would place your hand
inside of me?
what did you really see?

I saw a monster
who once was my father
and now I want to die
why live?
why try?

I can never sleep
I can barely breathe
the more I try
the more I find
I can never escapre from
The Monsters in My Mind.
The Monsters in My Mind December 27, 2011 9 comments 7 favourites
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January 26 27 and 28 2012January 26, 27 & 28th 2012

Hello World!

We're doing it!  Kat and I went to our first parties Thursday, Friday and Saturday nights and made sales.  We made lots of money.  I don't want to say how much because if anyone figures it out who I am, I don't want them robbing me!  Not like it's all mine, but I got a nice chunk a money!!!  So I'm slinging everything but rock and tar!  It was fun at first, but then it got boring and I got tired plus I started to worry cause I have to work in the morning, but I got a couple of hours sleep and drank a really big coffee.  This is gonna work out good.  Chuck brings me and Kat to the party and both of us January 26 27 and 28 2012 by ~ThrowAwayGirl
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January 24 and 25 2012January 24th & 25th 2012

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Back to work.. I still love this job, not cause it's so great, but cause Margo and Yuri really believe in me and trust me.  They are both scared that someday I'll move on and they want me to do better, but I like it here and now because of the other stuff I'll make more money so I might stay here longer than they expect.  I like the regualr magic guys that come in, but they talk about magic the way DJs talk about mixing beats... I have no idead what these magic guys are talking about... DJs I can talk with, but these magic guys are freakin weird and I don't know what the hell they'reJanuary 24 and 25 2012 by ~ThrowAwayGirl
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January 22 and 23 2012January 22 & 23, 2012

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Kris and I fought again on the ride up to V Ville... I don't get it and don't want to fight anymore, but she won't just drop it!  Fuck it!  She didn't even come in at first when I got to my Mom's, but she had to use the bathroom and then she got out and cooled off a bit when we talked to my Mom.  Then we kinda made up and she kissed me goodbye when my Mom went back into the trailer.  I don't know if it bothers my Mom or not that sometimes I'm with girls, but I don't think it does cause she knows from some of the time when she was in jail how it's easier and nicer to be with women, not that she was, but sheJanuary 22 and 23 2012 by ~ThrowAwayGirl
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January 21 2012January 21, 2012

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I worked all day and then Kris came and picked me up from work.  We went to her house and got ready, we went to this Goth Club she likes and they had this wild BDS&M show on stage and it was all these hot girls and this one smokin bodied up prettt Goth boy doing all these torture things to each other.  Then they had this one girl get on this fuck me bench and layed down with her face to the floor, then they ripped her top off and started to whip her with this cat o'nine whip.  Her ass was so hot and up in the air like that... I wanted her so bad, but I wanted to be her even worse!!!  I talked to the one girl whJanuary 21 2012 by ~ThrowAwayGirl
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Your head will collapse
If there's nothing in it
And you'll ask yourself

Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?
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  • Listening to: silence
  • Reading: this computer in front of me
  • Watching: the store
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: a banana
  • Drinking: I wish!
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Don't Worry About It...
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I'm me.
I'm lost.
I'm found.
I'm downtown.
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*asianblade Feb 11, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
hope your alright out there :)
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Mood: Affection ~greenolive5557 Jan 15, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you soooo much for the watch! <3
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~ThrowAwayGirl Jan 20, 2012
You're welcome!!!!
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~BrutalTomoko Jan 13, 2012
thank you so much for the watch <3
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~ThrowAwayGirl Jan 14, 2012
You're welcome.... good stuff!
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~undeadfreak16 Jan 6, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you for the watch:)
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~ThrowAwayGirl Jan 9, 2012
You're very welcome kind sir!
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~CupcakeRemix Jan 3, 2012  Hobbyist
Thank you for the fav and the watch :D
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~ThrowAwayGirl Jan 3, 2012
You're so welcome!
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*asianblade Dec 27, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
thanx for the fav :kiss:
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